busy with a side of stress…

Dear internet diary,

well, things have been feeling so off lately yet so good at the same time. I just went to my first college fair on Saturday at the University of Washington(picture attached with  freshman classmate). I got to see all the different programs the universities/colleges had to offer. Wow, I’m going to be done with high school, go off to uni, then find a job.. It’s almost sad to think about. Have you ever gotten that feeling or maybe experienced a moment where you can mentally and even physically at times feel your childhood slipping away? Or at least you can feel yourself “growing up”. I know I’ve been having those feelings/moments more frequently and it upsets me. My childhood was taken away at a very young age due to living in a house of domestic violence and I get frustrated when others see me as childish.

I’m just trying to live what I missed out on… what so many others wish they still had. 

Maybe I’m not feeling my “childhood” slip away, but what’s slipping is the opportunity to have one or to experience one without the artificial happiness.

Anyways,

I have so many things going on that I have been stressed about. For one, my grades aren’t the best that they could be. Also, I get to attend a 12 hour global issues network conference on Friday, a 6 hour meeting on Sunday, Green Team tomorrow and homework on top of all of that.

it’s not easy being a high schooler.

Sincerely,

Clarissa